Just the Perfect Blend-ship...

somehow, against all odds, i've managed to keep friends i had in high school and college.

in particular, there are two girls that i've been friends with since i'm 15, that i "talk to" every other day (we either e-mail, comment on each other's blogs, or both). i don't know why, but that blows me away. i just never thought i'd be so lucky to be able to keep such wonderful people around me (read: in my life) for such a long time. i've never been one to make "fast friends". i tend to be stand-offish with new people and reserve judgement, about calling them friends, till i know them better. more often than not, in new social situations, i'd rather be alone then talk to people i don't know.

also, to be perfectly frank, i'm pretty sure that if i wasn't me and i met me, i don't think i'd really like me. don't get me wrong, i think i'm a good guy and all, but i'm pretty sure that i make it very difficult for other people to like me and be friends with me. i'm rude, blunt, moody, surly, snarky and generally ill-tempered. i'm terrible at making and keeping plans and motivating myself to leave the house. maybe it's just low self esteem, but i'm often surprised to find that some people do like me. what's even more surprising is the number of people who've stuck it out and have been my friends for more than a couple of months.

my mom always said that "if you made it to the age of 30 and have 3 close friends, you should consider youself really lucky". well, ma, i've got 6. imagine how good i feel.