Yesterday, When I Was Mad...

yesterday was not a good day.
work had me completely stressed out, it's been alot busier that it usually is in the good old summertime, and by the end of the day i was at my wit's end. i hadn't slept the night before last, as i knew that there were problems waiting for me when i came into work; problems that i had caused and was trying hard to undo, without my supervisors getting involved. on top of that i've been very concerned about Stephen's ambivilance about switching jobs; thinking that he's going to be just as unhappy in a new setting as he is in the current one (i've mentioned in the past that he's got a bit of a dark/pessimistic side) and that my advice to interview elsewhere was completely off-base. this made be think that he'll never be happy, no matter where he is, because he's not happy with me. this got me thinking about the commitment ceremony and all the stress i've been bottling up about that (money, planning, money, invitations, money, etc). Meanwhile, Magenta had e-mailed me because of yesterday's post, and really helped me put it all in perspective, but by the time i hit the F train home i still felt like i wanted to cry. was hot and hungry, as i hadn't had more than a bag of Sun Chips since dinner the previous night, and having a total meltdown seemed like a capital idea. But, that was not to be...
i got to 34th street and stephen was smiling broadly waiting for the bus. he put his 4 weeks notice in and was finally happy about the move. it turns out he was waiting to hear from the new hospital's HR dept before getting his hopes up about leaving. he heard from HR yesterday and everything was official, greenlights all around. he asked me why i seemed so upset and i laid it all on the line for him. we talked almost the whole way home (at some point he picked up his book, and i donned my headphones and picked up mine) and i felt a helluva lot better getting off than when i had gotten on the bus.
we went home, ate dinner and watched Love!Valour!Compassion! which is one of my all time favorite movies. it's funny and makes me cry every time i see it. by the time i went to bed, everything seemed alot better.

please check out yesterday's other post...

"We defy augury. It's Shakespeare, it means 'don't fuck with me'"~ Love!Valour!Compassion! (James Jekkyl)