i'm so tired i can hardly see.
we had two shows last weekend, one show at Jenn's this weekend, and my sister-in-law's baby shower yesterday. i haven't been sleeping well, since i have so much on my mind (namely, paying for the wedding, and my car's transmition which seems to be on it's last leg). strangely enough, i'm not worrying a tremendous amount over my brain tumor. i'm very much "whatever" about the whole thing (though, i will confess i had a bit of a mini- meltdown the other night while watching an episode of the L Word where one of the characters is diagnosed with breast cancer. don't ask how i made the leap from cancer to a brain tumor; i just did). i haven't seen john or chris in, what feels like, 3 months. if it wasn't for their blogs i'd have no idea a) what they look like or b) what they are up to. so, i'm tired, cranky and quite honestly a bit on the depressed side. stephen and are are sniping at eachother like a couple of under-caffinated/under-cocained drag queens and had a small row on the phone when i got to work. now my text messages are going ignored.
i just wanna sleep for, like, 3 days straight.
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Have I ever mentioned that two years ago I was having pain in stomach/side and no one could figure out why - then they did an MRI and promptly informed me that I had 12 tumors in my liver and they looked like cancer and it wasn't looking good. (the fear was metastisized melanoma since I've had a very small amount of cancer in a mole on my back). Anyway, guess what? After some of the best doctor's in the world absolutely convinced I'm going to die of cancer in my liver - It's nothing. Nothing at all. I have 11 benign tumors (one was removed) that probably came about from taking estrogen for many years. They aren't growing, and I simply have to monitor them once a year. Doesn't affect my liver, doesn't affect me. I'm fine, healthy as a horse, but have a REALLY dramatic story. I wish the very same outcome for you.
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